Ramblings About Life

This morning I logged on to blogger for the first time in awhile. I didn't realize that it had been so long since I had written anything. I mean, I knew I had definitely been slacking, but I didn't realize it has been about twenty days since my last vent, blurb, journal or whatever these writings are. Here are a few things that have been on my mind.

I am marrying the most incredible man ever. Honestly, although I think deployment stinks, I believe that it has made the both of us grow individually and closer together. It is strange to think how him being worlds away could bring us closer, but I think it has. I am more grateful, more respectful and more aware of how much I absolutely can't imagine my life without him more every day. It's like the 80's song..."You don't know what you got... til it's gone." One thing rings true in me, I will never take another home day for granted.

In regards to my weight-loss, training, and getting into shape... I had to step back from the scale a bit. I am really working harder than I ever have before. If I let the scale alone dictate my success I may drive myself nuts before I reach my first goal. It is so easy to let the scale disappoint you. If I do that, I will give up before I ever get anywhere. Last night at the gym I beat my calorie burn. In fact, I squashed it and passed it by so much that I will have to really bust it to pass that burn again. Although the scale is slow to move, I can see physical changes in my body. Also, when I first began working out regularly it would take very little movement to get my heart rate up. I could be walking at the very lowest incline at what seemed like a snail's pace and my heart rate would skyrocket. This is no longer the case. I sometimes walk at the highest incline and can make my walking speed almost a jog. Sometimes I just want to run! I have found that I am not there yet though. Sometimes I jog for a bit, but never for very long as my heart rate gets too high. I don't mind getting it way up there, but 180 for an extended period of time isn't good. My trainer tells me to chill when I hit 175. I try not to exceed that number.

Okay... I will try to write more thoughts later this evening. I need to get a move on and get to work.