Weigh In: Feb 9

Well...the predicated two week curse has struck. Tonight was weigh-in night at the gym. I only lost one pound this week.... but honestly... I am SO EXCITED! I worked hard this week for that one pound. I am sure I didn't do everything perfect, there were moments of stress, grief, sadness, joy and excitement... all which probably affected my weight loss. But it isn't a tragedy. I am truly, truly, through the roof excited about the ONE POUND! At least I didn't gain or not lose at all... which may happen at some point, but I hope not! This is a process, a long -------->>>> process that has just begun. If I have to sweat it out one pound at time I will. That is literally what I am doing anyway. I don't care if I have to bust it one pound a week at a time, I will one pound my way all the way to meeting my goal. Regardless of what the scale says, I can see a difference and I most certainly can FEEL the difference. I am the happiest I have been in years! After all, it isn't ALL about the scale.

Check back every Tuesday to see how things are going.

Brian aka My Hero

You know... this deployment thing really sucks. At times I have such a hard time and then sometimes I am completely fine. Tonight I kinda got a little huffy with Brian, not b/c I wanted to or had any excuse, I just let the situation and our current circumstance affect me. The fact is that sometimes when you are communicating by text or email... the tone of your words and the intensity or passion behind what you mean can be misunderstood. Plus, whatever point you are trying to make or whatever question you are trying to have answered can be muddled and seen as just chit chat when it was the main point or idea behind your email. Sometimes I feel like I should write my emails in outline form... most important and least important... or with highlighted areas. I'd probably look like a rainbow though so I have tried to avoid that... I'm artsy like that. Anywho... the moment that I royally blew it with the email, I had to get offline and rush to the gym for Body Flow class. And as usual when I do something ridiculous, God always has a way of revealing to me just how big I blew it and then showing me what I should have done differently.

Sidenote... I listen to Focus on the Family a lot in the evenings. I enjoy the radio guest that they have on.

So tonight on my short drive to the gym I heard a lady named Dr. Julie Slattery share about how her Type A personality always put lots of expectations on her husband. She wished he would be more this way or care more about that or be more of a leader in this area. But she never really took the time to notice all the things he was good at... even better than her at... LIKE RELAXING! She said God put them together b/c her TYPE A and his LAID BACK personalities help keep each other on track. She also said that once she lightened up and started letting him lead in the areas he was good at... that she realized her lack of showing respect for him.

Boy... right there in the car I was crying my eyes out. I never want Brian to have to feel like I put to much pressure on him or disrespect him. I want him to know that he is a HERO in my eyes. I love him in every way, and I want to be a woman who encourages and builds up my husband... not tear him down. I remind myself constantly that Brian is not my ex-husband. He hasn't done those things to me. He hasn't hurt me like that other guy. I have no reason at all to not support him, not respect him, and not show him how much I count on him as my protector and the future provider of my family.

Brian is the guy who will kick the field goal. He is the guy that always scores the winning touchdown for our home team. He is so smart in so many ways and I am so lucky that I heard this program to keep my mind focused on the main thing.

Early Birthday

I got to chat online with Brian earlier. It is already his birthday where he is. Of course I told him happy birthday, but I am working on a writing for him for his birthday. There is more to say and more to write, but I am gonna wait to post it on his birthday here tomorrow. For now.. a simple Happy Birthday to you, Brian. I love you more than life.
*kisses*

Weigh In: Feb 2

Tonight was another night of training with Trey at Lifestyle Family Fitness. He is helping me with a pre-wedding workout. I also hope to surprise Brian with a healthier, leaner, more toned fiance' when he returns from deployment. I have a long way to go, but after the weigh in tonight, I feel more excited and motivated than ever.

I lost 6 pounds in one week! YAY!!!

Stay tuned for next Tuesday's weigh in...

April 30th!

Okay so April 30th is the wedding date.
I have been waiting for my sailor to pick the date.
It has been a little frustrating trying to get into a groove of communication while he is away. He is really busy and there are some time differences and his schedule has changed a few times. Anywho... I am so excited that we finally have a date.